What makes you happy? :)

family,God,happiness and love.

Curiosity.

What traits in a man gets your lasting attention?

manners and and a million dollar smile.oh and also if he's the balanced type,between funny and serious.sweet,but not a liar.and it doesn't hurt if he's yummy.:p

Curiosity.

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are u afraid in the dark?

yes.. wouldn't be if someone was with me..:)

Curiosity.

Do you hate ur Xbf/ Xgf.......?

hrmm.. i do.. but some i don't.. :)

Curiosity.

hey girls, what do you do if you're having extremely bad period pain and you have to stay in a super duper cold place for hours ?

put a hot pad on your tummy,and lying down helps... make sure ur body's totally covered..

Curiosity.

Who was the best boss you've ever had?

i gotta say,my mummy. :)

Curiosity.

Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

i am a combination of both.i believe everyone is.. because there are times you wanna socialize and there's time you just need to shut yourself out of the world.

Ask me anything

I'm officially 19.

yeah! it's my birthday.

well,it's the early hours.

thanks for the wishes on my phone,Facebook and word-of-mouth.

well i can;t blog about it much.

gotta wait till it ends.

only

i wanna blog about my 1st presents and the 1st to wish me.

MY BEE. >roland

so sweet.

well he told me that after class he went to buy a dress for his mum. and called me up for opinions.

then at night he suddenly said he's coming over to my place to take his blazer which has been with me for a long time. :) p/s I love it when he wears it. :)

and tadaa....

he gave me my present.it was in a box,a cute one indeed,which is full of loves.

then he made me promised to only open it at midnight while on the phone with him.

oh and he kept saying he's sorry cos he didn't bake a cake like he promised,and how it's only a pencil with a Bee on it,which i once pointed to him when i saw it at Cp.

i told him,it's fine.

at least he gave me all the loving i needed. :)

tadaa.. it's midnight and we're on the phone.

he sang for me.

then it's time for unwrapping my prezzie.

to my suprise,

it's not just A present.

it's PRESENTS.

:)

i got Sundress. wic i've been wanting for so long.

i got the pencil with the Bee on it.

i got a blue head accessory wic also I said I liked.

and I got a small Snoopy. Now Mr Beeboo has a friend. :)

aww..

pictures of all those.

Soon.

:)

Thank you my love. as i said,u r owez so sweetly suprising.

I love you.

You're my bestest gift.

:)

oh and i look forward to seeing you tomorrow. :)

Later,pumpkins.. :)

Elle's EYE CANDY. :)

mixed feelings. why?because eventually he said he's going to the prom.and since i can guess who's gonna be there,i feel a bit 'urgh!"..but well,whatever.i don't feel like talking about it.so,yeah,gonna smile and be like Elle. :) as long as he takes care of himself,and keep his promises,i'm gonna be nice. :)

well.
anyways,as i lamely sat eating in front of my lappy,i decided to blog about my love for guys wearing formal clothing.i find them so hot when they look trim and proper. :) well it's not like i don't like them wearing chill clothes,but,when they wear blazers and all,i just kinda love it.my heart does that little flip.:) i just like guys that takes into consideration their looks and hygienes.:) i'm like that.

but hey,don't get me wrong.i won't jump on any guy wearing formal. i'll just make you my eye candy. :) and talk about you with my friends. :) but,you know my heart don't just automatically become yours. so,whatever.

lucky me. my course requires us to be in formal attire. and tadaa,my coursemates are hot wearing like that. :) i can't wait till BUSINESS ETIQUETTES class next semester coz we are to wear blazers and all. :) so eye candy everyday for me. and a topic for my babes and me. :) LOVE.

Sister Bond

this is my annoying sis.We were at Megalong's Food Court with Mummy. as annoying as she is,I still love her. :)

Make a Judge out of Urself and u r the biggest FOOL..

You think you know me? You don't.

First of all,people,I am not Chinese,Japanese or Korean. I am just a Kadazan. My looks will fool you. But,i speak chinese. and once,to my suprise,in primary 6,i got 100% for Chinese exams. and i am still shocked about that.

second,i am not bitchy. i love being nice if i'm treated nice. i'm bitchy if u r. :)

then i am the most loyal fan of COLA and BRITNEY SPEARS.

i'm a person you will think as a strong person but there are times I'll break down.

i adore shopping.hanging out.chilling.music.dances.

i get bored with something after a while but when I'm in the moos,I'm full on.

i read. anything that can be read.

i eat like,a lot. :) because i hate diets. i can't stick to it.

i have Mummy as my HEROINE.

when i'm in a badmood or not in the mood,i become quite. but yet i still go loud. because,i don't know. that's me.

i hate copymeows.bitches.sluts.two-faces.hypocrites.snobs.and i hate disrespects.

i once was a bully victim.

i am not perfect.

i don't judge people unless they want me to.

i love talking.i talk too much. but i quite down when it's right.

i have my Mr Beeboo. :) which i cuddled with every night.

i can be obsessed about things at times.

i,sometimes,is a PERFECTIONIST. but it kills me all the times,so i'm trying to kill it low.

i am a good friend,if you are. and i'm a bad friend,if you don't deserve me.

hugs,kisses on my forehead are my fairy tales.

i have imaginations. where in it,i am the star. :)

i love someone.

i lost someone.

i have the life i adore yet i wish some things are different.

my name is spelled ERICA MATHESSHA MATHEW. spell it and pronounce it right.

i cheated before,now i have no intentions too.

i get envious at times but then i always find myself is just as good. :)

i love taking long baths.

i hate crowds. noises. unplesant smells. perverts.

i love GOD and my family. and Him. :)

i am nicknamed as Elle,Didie,Popoi,Ipoy. and more. depending on the person.:)

i love inspirations and to be inspired.

i love makeup but i like it light. :)

i don't feel pretty when i tie my hair up. or when it's short.

i have a brother who is my best friend at home.

i have an annoying sister.but she reminded me of me when i was younger.

i have like the most known for his height bro.

i looked like my mummy. but i don't see it yet.

and i am so much more than you think you know about.

1 advice:

get to know me.

:)

Hey,Love.

i love it when you suprised me. Good suprises i mean. and ever since i met you,that was all i get.

i met u by suprise. i knew u by suprise. we're bestfriends by suprise. i like u by suprise. i love u by suprise. and we are together by suprise.

now,u gave me all the best suprises in my life. a sudden call to say "i love you". a sudden bubble to say "i miss you". a sudden meeting coz u miss me. constant sweetness. hugs,kisses,words,presents.

I love you,and how you want to always be my sunshine. :) thank you for your unconditional love and care. and most of all the respect you gave and taught me. i appreciate all those little big things you did for me.

don't ask me if I'm fine with buses,vans or whatever public transports. Because sweetie,whatever mode of transport,as long it's taken with you,it's worth it. if you take me by car,i won't demand to be treated like a princess. same as if we go out with buses or taxis or vans. i'm just a girl. not raised with a silver spoon in my mouth,so I'm fine with all that.

don't apologize when you give me a small present. because bee,not one present from u is small. it's big. because it is sincere and ur act of love. I love it all. :) especially Mr Beeboo. :)


my bestest sleep companion.



just want you to know,love,that you are my bestest friend.and i don't mind whatever we do,because i know ur always gonna be there.:) i am not perfect,but i'm the one who loves you best.

this post dedicated to you :) my sweetheart. because in the middle of the night, I MiSs YoU.

love

and again everyday,you make me fall in love with you with every little details.
God bless us,our family and in whatever we do.

Just the way YOU are.

My birthday's coming up real soon. :) It's the same as Daddy's. Can't wait. :) all i wish for is happiness,blessings and loves..:) details don't matter.:)

Oh. i read an article in Cleo mag just now..It's something about relaunching your life or something.It has like a quiz for you to answer. Okay well,whatever u think of me,I'm a reader. i'm a geek. i read. I do. and when i read,i don't like distractions. and i love all those quizzes. i don't know why. it passes my time well. :)

I did the quiz and i found out. Hell yeah that's true. I do need to relaunch my life starting from my social confidence. Hey,I admit,in primary,i was a part of a gang.not that kinda gang.like a girl group.but there are times when i am bullied. typical. in junior high,i was insecure. and there were times i feel like i gotta move out. you see i moved from a private school where i have my bestest babe to a public malay school where i don't know anyone.so,ackward.i got some attentions,bad and good.i messed up with a so-called-friendship and they never let me get pass it all through high school.immatures.they were like those mean,acting like they're all that,when in fact,people are just being nice to them.and there were times they went over the limits and i felt like i'm gonna have to move to another country.but i didn't.i let myself grow.i become a better person than them.:) so whatever bitches..:p i did have some beautiful memories in schools because there were a collections of self-achievements that i'm still proud of till today.and did any of those mean girls get it? not one.in fact mostly they got into troubles. yeah,revenge is sweet. yet,i never have to do anything.all i have to do is sit and be matured. and hell yeah.. :)) all smiles.. all those tears they put me through? never let it get the better of me. i walked through it. :)

Now in university,i am in another girl group.My babes.:) Love them to death. Hate them,but love conquers all because they're just too good to be hate.haha..really tells me off if i'm wrong,tell the truth and like,totally silly-milly with me. Love them babes. there are a few girls that still never matures,but hey,whatever babies,i'm still alive,and i'm alive not because i ate ur rice,so whatever.talk all you want.you know you're just too skanky. :) sorry but it'ss the truth.

so to anyone out there,if you ever get bullied or experiencing mean stuffs thrown into u,cheer up.we're here for u.even the most confident people gets bullied and be afraid.so,so,don't just jump into the conclusion that you need to end your life.The best part about being the victim is actually you'll mature and end up doing so much more better than those assholes.and trust me,those bitches,are just way too fucked up that they are so low they need a punchbag.when they go extreme,tell them off.u'll be suprised how brave and how actually a crybaby they are.all you need is a boost of confidence.here's some ideas:

• write a diary,or a blog. since it's 2010. :p express urself.
• get better friends. bitche back off.ain't worth it.if u need to pretend to be friends,then u shouldn't befriend them.
• sing and dance. it does help. trust me.
• be successful.
• look up to ur hero,in my case,MUMMY. cos they're usually strong. and inspirational.
• DEVOTE YOURSELF TO GOD. i'm still a sinner,but I want to be near to HIM. :)

just be true to urself. you're the best babe ever. :))

whatever it is you're facing,whoever you are,hey baby,you're amazing,just the way u r.

like Bruno Mars sang. :)


 

shooting with sarah...

Yeah! I've been home for almost two weeks now.:)) <3 gets boring at times but well,i still love it cos i have food.:)

Since I've been home,I've been wanting to find a part-time job cos I need some money.I'm the type of person that always want to use money.sometimes it's for good,like i don't wanna let my mum to but all those stuffs and etc.sometimes it's bad.because i have so many needs and wants (shopping :p)..i can't help it.I'm just a girl. :)) So if anyone know any jobs,ya,ring-ring okay? :)

Anyways,recently I hit the cameras with Sarah,my talking snail..:) Miss her so much. and I got to meet up with Suzanne a.k.a Tham2 as i used to call her..:)) childhood friends..always brings back the best memories..:) Miss u two bebehs.. Here are some shots..

my favourite shot on the Railway..:)

edgier.

Sarah said "kangkang koe erica." and btw Sars,u r like the only person that stills call me by my full name.:))

Groupie photo with future attackers of the Modelling Industry.. The lil girl is Dina,13..Awesome vintage look. Tall one is Suzanne,awesome rocking bod. And the white sweetheart is Mandy a.k.a the Angie Jolie lips.:))

i love this shot. Playful. Just like when we were in primary school.

Oh waves got us good that time. Sarah's only say in it was "welcome to real world,Girls." :) Tapi basah jg cam koe kan sars? Xpa.. :))

another addiction. In the water,literally. :)

That's a wrap. :)

So that was a few of the amazing shots Sarah took.well it's raw cos i don't wanna edit Sarah's art.It's disrespectful.:) leave it to her then..good luck bebeh..:)

Ahh...

Post done. :)

Comment.

i must be the world's laziest girl to study. sigh. i really want to start studying but it seems actions didn't speak louder than words,in my case at least. :p

my babes told me the past year questions are difficult. i agree. i saw it. no objectives. only fill ins,true and false,and essays. i wanna scream out.

i wanna start studying so bad.hopefully tonight the light of studying will shine on me. yeahh light,come to me.

hrm..let's blog.

so,i watched this movie titled '100 girls' just now. as much as it was a pointless movie,where the focus is on the sex part,there is one particular quote that i kinda like. and hate. confused will be the right description of my feelings towards the quote.

one of the girls said: THERE IS A WAY A MAN LOOKS AT THE GIRL HE LOVES. HE TURNS INTO A BOY ON HIS BIRTHDAY. SMILING AT THE PRESENT HE HAD WANTED SO BADLY.AND NOW HE IS ANXIOUS TO UNWRAP WHAT IT TREASURES.

or something like that. i paraphrased. :)

so at first it sounded like a romantic quote. but then,the guy was undressing the girl while saying this. so it become sort of like,it was only for foreplay reason.urghh..but there is a possibility that it meant something good. is there?

if someone can tell me,that would be great.

 

almost midnight.

hello pumpkins.

as i said last night,or dawn actually before i went to bed,i will wake up at noon today.

so,i did. :) and i woke up to his texts. saying he finished his Mid term.

OMG! 12pm? huuhhuu.. oh but Mas woke up late too. so,i don't look like a lazy pig. at least not alone. :p Thank u bebeh..

Well,waking up knowing you don't have anything to do sucks. i wonder how will i survive the holidays that's coming up soon.

it's so boring..argghh..i woke up.decided to ask mas if she wanna go out. she said Yes. :p

in short,we went out. to 1b. for nothing.:)

 bought some stuffs.

then wanted to watch movie,but,nothing's fun.so,off we went home.

now,we're back to the hostel.

bored again.

they're tending their Mall World store.

damn mine can't be tend to.coz the wifi's not being supportive.

this is the typical life of us babes.:) pretty boring.:)

i'm on the phone with love bee bear.:)

but he's studying so i gotta shut up. shhh..

i know my blog's getting boring but,

i'm not inspired just yet.

oh by the way,

i wish to see my ex soon.

i want him to know.

i am not in love with him again,so he can stop talking like he's all that.

screw your ego!

most of all.

i wish to

1. see my darling bee
2. eat mummy's cooking
3. start to study tourism geo soon.

 

From night till the break of dawn

my eyes are still open. fresh and awake.it's a cold night and i can't help missing my bee.i miss u bee.i just texted u.but i know ur asleep.sorry if i wake u up.:)

i just FB-txted with Mel my Imot just now.It seems that i'm worried about a few unnecessary things. :/ but well it's life. gotta worry just a lil bit at times. :]

Bee,if u ever come across this post,I LOVE YOU.so much my love.but we both know,that there's 1 thing i can't never forget.At 1 point we let that Vargas come between us.And my heart still bleeds for that.but nonetheless,ur still my everything.but i guess trust is gonna take a few more moments.sorry sweetheart.i trust u.i do.but i'm careful.i have to.my heart is fragile.:) but we're in a good place now. always have been. back on track.:)

i miss home so much. where i can have food.here i'm just like a bird,flying without any means. argghhh.. gosh while posting i feel hungry. damn.. mummy,when i go home,i wanna eat like a pig. and i wanna have some sleep.:) i'm like a panda here.:)

now is 4.41am. i know 1 thing for sure,i'm gonna sleep to lunch later. haha. but well,who cares. 

arghh.. anyway,feeling tred.. :) wanna get some rest. 

nites sweetheart.

nites lappy.

nites Elle. seriously,i gotta go have my nap time.

:)

aww. i miss my bangs.

Roland.

It's past midnight. I still can't sleep. I know i promised to sleep,but my eyes are wide open sweetie. Sorry. :)

it's freezing bee,u know how much i miss u when it's cold.if u're here,i know ur arms would be around me.and u will always tell me to not be afraid of anything.because ur bee is here for u.

i tend to be spoiled when i'm with u.

i get breakfast,lunch and dinner in bed.

i get what i want at any times.

i get u.

i get to spend precious time with u.creating unforgettable memories.

missing life.

i hide behind my smiles. even my closest friends can't tell a few things i'm keeping shut about. i'm just like that. i never like to tell my secrets. some of it at least. i don't like sympathy. it kills me. i like to be think about as someone who can take care of herself.

there are things in my life i wish never happen.

most of all, i wish it had never been broken from the start.

there are days when i want to stay in my room alone and just cry out all the fears that i have.

but i can't.

i always have the feeling that once if i break down,i will do so forever.

therefore i stand still and keep myself together. because i want to be like that.

 

darlings. i don't like being emo. but sometimes in life,u find it hard to go on smiling.

you find it is time to shut up and cry.

 

but however,

i love my life as it is.

i don't want it anywhere else.

this is just nice.

it's not perfect.

but at least i am blessed.

God,thank you.

 

my darlings.

never let life brings you down.

it's not at all perfect.

but hey,

you're alive.

live up.

:)

there's a smile.

and what's behind it.

 

Dedicated to : Babes

babes ---------> Chitty@Mum,Eiz,Mas, Bell

My babes:
I love u guys.. biarlah giwang.. haha.. blog sa bah nii.:) Thank u so much for all ur supports thru my ups and dwns. dari kebutaan hingga dapat chya,kamulah sja yg stay with me. haha..

minta maaf minta ampun andainya ada slah and silap spnjg bteman sama kamu. haha.. raya da abis so munee xpa,pass laa.. haha..

i hope kita suma dapat apa yg kita mau,tmasuk hotstuffs.. hahah.. 
gonna miss u gals.:)

Speak myself up.

Hello.
Just to let you guys know, www.littlezmizxtakes.blogspot.com a.k.a my previous blog,no longer exist. I mean it's still there but I'm too lazy to fix it to be more updated.

It is November. I'm now at the 3rd sem of my diploma. It is hard,but I made it through. :) Currently, waiting for my last paper, which is Tourism Geo. Huhu.. I haven't started to study, but I will. :) Promise.

For those of you who didn't know, I am no longer dating that guy in UMS. It ended actually more than a year ago. We've made it to a year and 9 months I think. But things didn't go well. So, i walked out. It wasn't a healthy relationship, i did what i needed to do. Leaving was the best option. I'm currently dating another guy. And it has been a year,just last month. :) I'm happier and loving him keeps me happy. He is a sweetheart. I dated him a month before I broke up with my ex. We knew each other when we were in the same class back when he was here in campus. We fell in love during the times when we were bestfriends.:) I know,u guys are going to think what a slut i am,cheating on my ex. But hey,i cheated because he never really cared about the relationship we had. is it wrong if i leave from a guy who only want me for my physical and not my love? should i stay and be unhappy and pass on the love that is obviously better and healthier for me? should i let a guy talk me into becoming a slut,or stick with my policies? u tell me. I don't wanna be a girl who lives for a guy, and forgetting all that's important for her. I wanna be me. I wanna love and be loved in return. I wanna date someone that can make me smile,respect me,my family and our relationship.

So,i left him. I asked him 1 last time if he will respect me,and he said no. So,goodbye boy. If you're gonna be immature,then stay that way,and don't do it to me. I'm not a doll,well i am,but i'm alive. haha.. my current beau,is someone i might say,better in all fields. I'm not saying he's perfect,but he knows respect,love and care. And that's more than enough for me. I love seeing him,he just know how to make my day brighter. We fight,yet never once did he forgot to say sorry,even though sometimes it is my fault.

enough said. Roland Mijol. I love you. Thank you for being my Romeo. :)
missing you bee.:)

It's back,bitch!

Hey,babies. I'm back to blogging . I know, I have a blog before. I've tried recovering it but hah that's too much of work.So,meet my new baby bloggie. This time, I'm back as Estrada. :) New life, new loves, new thoughts, new me. I'm still the same but,haha,I still have a few changes I guess. Keep in touch. :)