missing life.

i hide behind my smiles. even my closest friends can't tell a few things i'm keeping shut about. i'm just like that. i never like to tell my secrets. some of it at least. i don't like sympathy. it kills me. i like to be think about as someone who can take care of herself.

there are things in my life i wish never happen.

most of all, i wish it had never been broken from the start.

there are days when i want to stay in my room alone and just cry out all the fears that i have.

but i can't.

i always have the feeling that once if i break down,i will do so forever.

therefore i stand still and keep myself together. because i want to be like that.

 

darlings. i don't like being emo. but sometimes in life,u find it hard to go on smiling.

you find it is time to shut up and cry.

 

but however,

i love my life as it is.

i don't want it anywhere else.

this is just nice.

it's not perfect.

but at least i am blessed.

God,thank you.

 

my darlings.

never let life brings you down.

it's not at all perfect.

but hey,

you're alive.

live up.

:)

there's a smile.

and what's behind it.